prudence never pays.

first off i dont feel like using proper capalization sue me. so anyways i finally got my internet back. i tried to make a post when the baby was born but for some reason it wouldnt let me. well his name is chrsitian riley contreras, took my last name didnt think that john deserved the right to have the last name since he only recently came around when a month before he was born. he was born on june 16th at 11:25 am. right now hes pooping so no im not one of those computer moms who negelects her kids. im waiting for him to finish his business and then i am going to go ahead and change him and try to finish feeding him.

he is my life and soul and the moment that i laid my eyes on him i knew that he was the reason why i was put on this earth. he looked up at me and then he farted it was probably the most magical yet comical moment ever. and boy was he hungry the whole time he was making sucking motions. the whole labor process started out painful then it got really scary because he pooped in the womb which is dangerous because they can breathe in their poop and so his heartbeat kept dropping. they thought i was gonna have an emergency c-section. but to try and make his heartbeat get regular i had to deliver him with a oxygen mask which was scary. as u know it all was okay because here he is almost a month old and very very healthy.

as for his dad, well john was the perfect dad for oh i dont know 2 weeks and then he just started being an asshole. he wasnt there for the birth of his son because he was partying in college station. then the first time i was going to allow riley to go to his house he fucking gets drunk and high so of course i said no. according to him it had been 3 weeks since he had gotten messed up, good for you, you waited a whole 21 days. his mom is a bitch and called me fat and keeps commenting on how i tricked her son. he keeps saying i tricked him. so much drama from him.

but like i said aside from his crap everything is good. raising a baby is a lot harder then i thought it would be but its not too bad. i mean he is a little heefer sometimes and wants to eat like there is no tomorrow. he has thrown up on me. and i was suppose to meet up with some friends right now but i cant because he is too busy playing. its all worth it though, his smile is the most amazing thing i have ever seen.

here is a picture for all those who want to see him:

Wow, so lets see, my internet has been down for like 2 months now. My mom decided we didnt need a landline anymore so we got rid of it but she didnt re-register us for service. So she put the landline up and didnt re-register us for the new phone number so I was on the phone with tech support for over 2 hours about shit that I already know about. That is my day.

For those who dont know, I have decided to keep the baby. Next week I will be 6 months and I couldnt be happier. I still am not at that comfortable preganant stage I still feel like a bloated cow. But, I know that there is this little man inside of me that I just love more then life itself. I feel him moving more and more everyday. I have decided on the name Riley but again that is up in arms. His dad didnt take the news very well as he freaked out. His parents went as far as saying that they didnt want the baby to have their last name, because well the baby is a bastard baby. I really, really dont care, if they want to be asshole and not be there for thier first grandson then so be it. Me and him have all of the love in the world that we need already.

John, is slowly but surely coming around to the baby, he actually seems happy about it. The only thing that causes me concern is well his drug and alcohol use, but that is normal. Im single, we broke up and for some reason his only main concern is me sleeping around with other people. News flash, Im knocked up dating men is the last thing on my mind I assure you. Im stoked my first baby shower is around mid-April. I really, really can not wait. Ugh, I want to meet him so badly. SOOOOOOOOOO badly. I just hope that I will be a good mommy. My life is strange now, but to be honest I wouldnt have it any other way. 

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why can he not love me the way that i love him. =(

So, its that time of the year again, Halloween. For the past couple of years I have gone as a pirate, so this year I want to be something sexy and different from what I have been. So can you all help me decide plz?



I am really considering this one because John can be Joker and its only 19.99



I just love the look of this one, green knee highs come on.



I love the whole corset look of this one.



I have seen this one at Party City, I think it looks cute. Very seductive.



I always loved the slutty school girl look, very easy to pull off.



I think this one is just so fucking cute. I dont know why it just is.

Well if you can help me out that would be great. Sorry about your friends pages, but half of you are in ontd_fatties so you are used to picture spam.